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[02 Dec 2005|08:05pm] |
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Well, I turned 25 yesterday. Went better than the last few years. I'm a greedy materialistic person, so maybe the presents did that. I'm getting a webcam and headset, Danielle will finally get to see more than a few pics of me. We're going to use Skype to talk instead of the phone, since it's cheaper. Hence the headset. I also got Diablo Battle Chest. Which has Diablo, Diablo II, the expansion and strategy guide. I've played the demo and I like the games alot, and you can play online with friends,and best of all my shitty computer can handle it. Also getting a new keyboard and moving computer upstairs into my room. I'll finally be out of the kitchen hallway. Friggen cold in here during the winter. Anyways, that's about it. Oh, thanks to Peach for the new icon she made me.
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| Splenda is the devil |
[07 Nov 2005|06:59pm] |
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I've been wondering why I've been getting sick more often lately. Just discomforting things I won't go into. Anyways, I looked up Splenda's side effects and everything I've gone through is there. Since I only got feeling this way recently, about the time I started drinking Coke Zero, I think there's a connection. I'm gonna go back to C2 definitely, though the Nutra Sweet in that has it's own nasty side effects, I never got any that I remember. I'd drink normal coke, but I tend to drink alot of pop. >_> So better to stick to a slightly healthier version. >.< I'd get Clearly Canadian if it wasn't so damned expensive.
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[05 Nov 2005|04:31pm] |
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Yay, fresh new LJ Layout and Icon. Thanks again to Danielle for that.
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| Checking in |
[04 Nov 2005|02:51am] |
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Giving a short post to check in with anyone who still reads this old thing. Not much to say. Done with FFXI for awhile, maybe forever. Spend most of my days on AIM lately. Still in need of a job. >_> Lazyness is a hard habit to break. Anyways, that's all for now. I'm on Deyrion on AIM, usually invisible. So if anyone wants to say hi, it'd be nice to hear from old friends.
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| Another update. |
[16 Apr 2005|02:10pm] |
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Well, things have changed. Danielle's dad had a good day so she finally mentioned me and told him our plans. He was more supportive than I could of hoped. But he doesn't want her to move just yet, and since the U.S EMbassy won't give visa's till 6 months after your 18th birthday, it's for the best. She's gonna do 6 months of school in Canada, and visit for a lot of this summer I hope. He said he'd sign off on a Visitor's Visa. He'd even let me stay in the camper they have there when I come visit. >_> Even mentioned a Christmas Dinner where me and my Mom could go meet them and stuff. That weirded me out. o.o I'm slightly afraid of her dad, and him being so nice all of a sudden kinda spooked me. But so far things should be good. I think she'll come here in Spring and get her GED, then we'll take a year off together before starting college here. >.< Not really enthused about going to school, but it'd make everyone really happy if I did go to a University.. So I suppose I can manage it. And getting a degree would boost my self confidence a bit. Since a lot of people I know are getting into RO, I'm more interested in joining than ever. I do miss iRO, but I miss how it was, not the reality. Friend told me he went back too and it was boring as hell. Probably would be for me too. I just miss the newness of it. Maybe I'll try a private server, if I don't make my own. Not for awhile, I couldn't stand sitting at this slow laggy piece of crap computer again, but when I get my own computer. I'd like to go be a support acolyte/priest again. And eventually High Priest, since most servers have the newer classes now. Hopefully Stef's does, since hers seems like the best I've seen out of what people've shown me. Even have that old guide I first read before getting onto RO posted on their site. Rates are same as dRO, so I wouldn't need to adjust much. Now if I can just get a computer. That'll require me to get a credit card and 5 friends with credit cards. o.o Then I can get one free if I can get them all to sign up at this site. Seems like a scam, but someone I trust milked that for all it's worth and got a free computer, free iPod, free prada bag or something for his mom. Evidently that's worth a lot of money, though why a bag should be worth a lot is beyond me. I wonder which is harder, working for a few months to get the money, or nagging friends into helping. I'll just have to see. Anyways, that's it for now. Later all.
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| Yes, I'm still alive. |
[06 Apr 2005|11:31pm] |
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Well, I've been gone awhile and thought I'd post a bit. o.o I've been mainly on FFXI and the occassional stop on AIM. I cleaned my friend list up but I clicked too fast and removed some names I didn't mean to. >.> So if anyone wants to still talk to me, you can message me on Deyrion when I'm on. I'm not much of a talker these days, so beware. Life has been fairly decent. No major updates besides one. I'm not moving to Canada after all. Danielle will be moving here instead, hopefully in August. Since her ass of a Dad is overly crazy, this will work out better. Now we just need to work on getting her a Visa and seeing how much the school will charge for her to finish highschool here. 9/11 sure made things more annoying. With our luck, they'll deny her application for one. >.> We've talked about getting married so she could stay, but we both think that'd be really bleh. It's not what we want, so we'll try finding another way. FFXI waxes and wanes, and has for awhile. Somedays I love it, others I hate it. If I hadn't spend so much time, money, and energy on it I think I'd quit and never look back. But it has it's hooks in me fairly deep. I'm hoping when I finally get myself a decent computer, I can try a few other games. Rose Online looks promising, as does Fantasy Earth, whenever that arrives in North America. I do miss iRO a lot. It was amazing at first. My first computer game, as well as MMORPG. So many people before p2p came along. 10,000+ I remember friends telling me to try it, since it was like The World. At the time I was a .hack nut so I couldn't resist a line like that. I think I'll go back to it someday, if I can get a few others to come with. >_> Anyways, can't think of anything else to talk about, so I'm done for now. Hopefully I post more often than every 6 months like I've been doing. Take care all.
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| Hello o.o |
[13 Sep 2004|03:37pm] |
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Hmm...where to start. I've been on FFXI for a long time if that wasn't obvious. I don't make it online much. Don't really feel like coming on here anymore. I miss some friends, that's about it. If I'm not on AIM or online, it's like I don't exist to most, hence the rather sad lack of emails. I'm beyond the point of getting nostalgic over how things were. I feel like I'm better off now. Chat life seriously isn't for me. I did my time (makes it sound like prison XD), I learned a lot and did an immeasurable amount of growing up. I've gained a few friends I know I'll keep a long time, but most I think I've already lost touch with or will as time passes. I'll stop by now and then but I don't think I'll ever stay on long again. I'm not obsessed with FFXI either. It's just a temporary pastime till I can move to Canada. Anyways, though I'll probably piss someone off posting this, I'm going to anyways.
?: Okay, I know this guy Kevin, and like we like each other..anyway, he told the whole chat..anyways, it got out, Dale found out, started hating on Kevin. =/ Calling him a prick and everything, they have been arguing about it for like three days.
?: Anyway
?: a couple days ago
Deyrion: o.o;
?: [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<__<>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Hmm...where to start. I've been on FFXI for a long time if that wasn't obvious. I don't make it online much. Don't really feel like coming on here anymore. I miss some friends, that's about it. If I'm not on AIM or online, it's like I don't exist to most, hence the rather sad lack of emails. I'm beyond the point of getting nostalgic over how things were. I feel like I'm better off now. Chat life seriously isn't for me. I did my time (makes it sound like prison XD), I learned a lot and did an immeasurable amount of growing up. I've gained a few friends I know I'll keep a long time, but most I think I've already lost touch with or will as time passes. I'll stop by now and then but I don't think I'll ever stay on long again. I'm not obsessed with FFXI either. It's just a temporary pastime till I can move to Canada. Anyways, though I'll probably piss someone off posting this, I'm going to anyways.
?: Okay, I know this guy Kevin, and like we like each other..anyway, he told the whole chat..anyways, it got out, Dale found out, started hating on Kevin. =/ Calling him a prick and everything, they have been arguing about it for like three days.
?: Anyway
?: a couple days ago
Deyrion: o.o;
?: <__< Dale confessed he loved me more than Sarah, and that he always has, and that he regretted me and him breaking up. =/ And blah blah blah, and now it's a big mess and it's like shut the hell up!
Deyrion: o.o
Deyrion: Sarah and Dale broke up?
?: Not yet, Sarah was talking about breaking up with him, so I heard anyway. =/ Dale was going to go to her and talk about it.
?: And break up with her
Deyrion: Dale is a parasite. o.o
Deyrion: Nobody listens to me. -Shrugs- What else can I say?
?: o.o Nothing
Deyrion: Yep. o.o
Deyrion: You'll both let Dale mess with you over and over.
?: I never agreed to going out with him again. >.>
Deyrion: <.< No, but you'll stay his friend and let him keep doing things like this.
?: o.o so?
Deyrion: o.o So don't complain. The shit storm you're could of been avoided if you'd of wanted too.
Deyrion: >.> I'm sorry I'm not more sympathetic. I'm just a bit grumpy.
Deyrion: I've warned you both about Dale for how long now?
Deyrion: Nobody listens to me.
o.o Getting stuff like this as soon as I log on isn't pleasant. Especially since it's a matter I've told the parties involved over and over again that Dale is an ass and shouldn't be associated with. >.> I come on here to talk to friends, not deal with this chat related drama that's been going on for over a year. If you won't listen to me, why should I listen to you? Anyways, people know where to reach me if they'd like to talk. I'm out for now. Take care all. |
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>.> Hopefully I'll be starting FFXI tomorrow. o.o I can get emails at Ashekel@pol.com I think if I get that email address from there. Deyrion@Hotmail.com was a mistake so ignore that. o.o Chances are I won't start tomorrow though. I have bad luck. We'll see how things go.
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| Life is good. |
[26 Jun 2004|06:49pm] |
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I haven't posted in here in a long time, so thought it was about time I did, though I doubt many will read. I'm happy and doing well. I've been with Danielle over a year now and we're very much in love, and I don't doubt we always will be. Every day that passes is one closer to the day we'll finally be together, eleven months from now. Peach just got back to online to visit, which I'm happy about. I missed her a lot. I'm glad to know she's doing well. I was really worried. I'm also not bothered by how things have changed anymore. I may not have as many friends as I did, but the ones I have are the best. o.o Only thing problematical in my life is the need to get into shape and get a job in September. Not looking forward to it, but it is long overdue. I recently got FFXI for the Ps2 and will be playing that shortly. I won't be on AIM as much as I usually am, since I have to take the modem upstairs to play, but I can be emailed at Deyrion@hotmail.com, a new email I made since Ashekel@hotmail.com is filled with spam a lot. Also, people can give messages to Danielle on AIM, her screen name is Ellonis. She's playing FFXI on the PC so she'll have AIM open, or an away message up. >.> I heard a few people I know were complaining about me ignoring everyone to play games. o.o Kim was the only one there with the right to complain about that. I don't spend as much time with her as I should. As for the other two, we stopped talking long before I ever heard of any online games, from their own personal choices. Thanks to Virgil for defending me, he understands. While my life is going fairly well, I do worry about things with others. I wish they were 18 already and could go to college and get away from things at home. Anyways, need to get back to AIM.
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| Eh.. |
[12 Mar 2004|11:35pm] |
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Bad night. Two of my good friends might break up. I don't know how to help. I held a relationship together once before and they broke up after a time and hated eachother. I don't want that to happen this time. I think they're both really great for eachother, are stronger together then separate. I don't think they're really intentionally doing anything either. Just it's easy for misunderstandings over the internet. And an age difference coupled with one's first real relationship will just add to the misunderstandings. And it seems alot like my past relationship with Tiffany. I still ache from that and it's been over way over year already. I don't want to see friends suffer like that. It took me a long time to recover from it, and it scarred me. I miss how I was sometimes, and having more friends change and drift away would hurt. I'm hoping Jec might be able to help, but there's another problem. I never really talk to her anymore. I stopped IM'ing her after I said I'd wait for her to IM me when she felt like talking. It feels like it's been months since then. I feel like any friendship between us is dying because of what happened. I can't imagine her pain. I can only remember my own and how it changed me. I don't talk to Tiffany anymore, maybe she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. Maybe her way of coping with things is removing me from her life. Or letting us drift apart. I can't really blame her either. She's one of the strongest people I've ever known. Cutting her losses and moving on would probably be the wisest course. She wouldn't let feelings hold her back from doing what she thinks will help her. I really do miss her though. I wish we could be close friends again, just like it was. But I doubt it can be. I hope she heals better than I did. Anyways, I just felt like blabbing all this. Didn't really make me feel better, but at least interested parties can maybe look and see how I feel about things. I'm done for now. Good night all.
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[21 Feb 2004|06:44pm] |
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Well, I finally got Suikoden I off Ebay. Now I'm trying to get Suikoden II, Lunar Silver Story, and Lunar 2: Eternal Blue, new or in excellent condition with original case, leather manuals, and extras. Lunar comes with Sound tracks, and the making of CD. Same with Lunar 2, but it also has a pendant. <.< I want all that. o.o I thought I'd given up gaming but I just have the urge to go back and play my favorites and get some I missed out on. >.> Anyone who's reading this, I'd take it as a big favor if you checked wherever you lived to see if they have those three games I mentioned. I'd send you the money and you could buy and ship them to me.o.o They're old, online stores don't carry them except used. Also, if you can think of any RPG's I might like, post a comment and tell me about it. Now just need to wait till the game gets here. SHould of been here by today at the latest. >_> FedEx guy game and dropped something off so I got all excited, thinking it was here. It was just a shirt somebody ordered. Very annoying. o.o Anyways, I'm done.
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| I hate Ebay |
[10 Feb 2004|05:45pm] |
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>_> I got all excited when I saw Suikoden brand new selling for 15$ on Ebay. There was only one day and 20 left in the bidding so I thought I could get it easily. o_O Went up to 41$ and there's still another 20 hours to go. I wish I could just buy it, not watch it's price jump so high I'll never get it. It's selling for like 100$ or more brand new from other places. I hate used stuff, but I think that's the only way I'll be able to get it. Stupid Ebay.
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[29 Jan 2004|07:05pm] |
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New LJ Layout thanks to Danielle. I really like it. ^_^ She's making me a Miroku icon too. >.>
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| Turn about. |
[01 Jan 2004|11:01pm] |
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Hmm...posting again, though not sure why I am. Too stubborn to tell anyone directly how I feel I think. Life has become a complete turn about for me. I used to have more friends than I knew what to do with, quite a few close friends I could talk to. But I was still lonely, and wanting someone to love. Now, I have that, and I am happy. Danielle makes me very happy and makes me feel hope and believe things will work out. But, most of my friends are gone. Quite a few I just can't talk to anymore, because there isn't any common ground there now. Others have moved on and we talk now and then when we're both on. But it's not as close as it was. I admit I went overboard in my RO playing. I threw myself into it as deeply as I could go and neglected everyone. I wanted to forget Nara and being hurt, and I was tired of people. Then I met Danielle and for that time all I needed or wanted was her and to talk to her. Again, I neglected everyone. Only now am I starting to realize what I lost. And it hurts. I don't know what I want. Part of me wants my old life back before Nara. Before RO. But I love Danielle and I never want to be without her, ever. She's become everything to me. I wouldn't change what's happened, so all I can do I guess is mourn what I've lost, and be thankful for what I've gained. But, as someone who tends to dwell on the negative, I can't help but miss my friends, and be sad.
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| Merry Christmas all |
[24 Dec 2003|07:05pm] |
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Hmm...I'm gloomy tonight, though I'm not sure why. This is a better Christmas than last years, for the most part. I'm in love with Danielle and we've been together almost 6 months now. I don't see what I have to be melancholy about, but I am. I haven't been enjoying Christmas, even my birthday, like I usually do. I used to get excited over presents like any child. Now, I don't really care. Maybe I'm growing up, but I'd rather stay young and keep enjoying some things. I feel old I guess. Less friends this year than the last. Quite a bit less. Maybe that's it. I feel lonely. Ah well, I'll get over it. Anyways, I didn't post here for comments, only to write things down to clear my head. Any posts with the over used phrase "old man" won't be appreciated at this point. Joking gets tiresome when it's repeated and constant, all the time. Anyways, Merry Christmas everyone.
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| Heyo o.o |
[17 Oct 2003|10:24pm] |
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Hi, thought I'd post finally. Uhh..not much going on. o.o How is everyone? I'll try and check back for responses soon >.>
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[26 Sep 2003|11:06am] |
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Been awhile since I updated. o.o Stef was complaining I don't come here often enough so I decided to stop by. I haven't really talked to anyone who isn't on dRO much lately. Some people on AIM annoy me and so I don't go on when I think they're there. Sorry for that upsetting anyone. I talked to a few people I haven't in awhile, like Dee and Becky. Dee and I are barely friends anymore it seems. Becky is upset with me, but at least we're still close. Haven't seen Kim or Sarah yet. I miss them both alot. A few others I haven't seen I miss a lot too. Not much going on for me. The wedding is over, thank God. Working 15 hours a day on decorating is too much. x.x Feet are still tender after all that. The ceremony went well I guess. Tuxedo was uncomfortable and shoes hurt, but I managed. It was good to see my cousin again. Haven't seen him in a long time. For those overly naggy and curious people, yes, I did get a few pics of myself. >.> I doubt I'll show them though. I looked bad in the tux. o.O Though I always look bad, so not much difference. Anyways, I guess this is all for now. Later everyone.
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